Below are the 9 most recent journal entries recorded in kubeyren's LiveJournal:

Sunday, March 27th, 2005
12:00 pm	Beware of Invisible Cows! Okay, I've got 3 days (counting this one) left in Hawaii. Trouble is, whatever made me sick for the first week here has happily passed itself on to my brother. So now we spend yet another day inside, watching movies and playing video games. Not such a bad deal, but still, a little more sightseeing before I go would be nice. Guess I can't complain though, I did get to play with dolphins and see a sunset from the summit of the tallest mountain in the world (counting the underground portion) ^_^ Goddess, that was beautiful. And cold... really really cold. Like -20 degrees cold with a freaking wind chill of god-only-knows... /shiver Guess I'll go back and watch Todd play more Kingdom Hearts. I may be on FFXI if his computer decides to allow it. (He just put another drive in and it's acting kinda freaky). But anyhoo, I'm kinda looking forward to coming home. I miss my kitties and certain other members of my household too (you know who you are /huggles the other MPAs). Beat Kit and give Noli-face some milk for me, okay? Guess I'll see everyone later and don't forget: Beware of invisible cows!! (Honest to god sign on top of Mauna Kea. I nearly died laughing... kinda literally, because of the 40% reduction in oxygen up there. I sort of chortled, and then had to sit down to regain my breath because my head was doing funny "I can't stand up"-type things. Best sign ever! And they have lots of funny signs here like, "don't feed fingers to the seabirds," and "Do not light gasline on fire" and "Do not become nude on the beach"... I wonder who wrote these signs and if they were intentionally trying to be amusing, or if they simply lacked a good editor? Current Mood: weird Current Music: Evanescence - Anywhere (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 25th, 2005
12:15 pm	Advanced Global Personality Test Results Extraversion |||| 16% Stability |||||| 26% Orderliness |||||||||| 36% Empathy |||||||||||| 43% Interdependence || 10% Intellectual |||||||||| 36% Mystical |||||||||||||||| 63% Artistic |||||||||||||||| 63% Religious |||||||||||| 50% Hedonism |||||||||||||||||| 76% Materialism || 10% Narcissism || 10% Adventurousness || 10% Work ethic |||||||||||||||| 63% Self absorbed |||||||||| 36% Conflict seeking || 10% Need to dominate || 10% Romantic || 10% Avoidant |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Anti-authority |||||||||||||||| 63% Wealth || 10% Dependency |||||||||||| 50% Change averse |||||||||| 36% Cautiousness |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Individuality || 10% Sexuality || 10% Peter pan complex |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Physical security |||||||||||||||| 63% Food indulgent |||||||||||||||| 70% Histrionic || 10% Paranoia |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Vanity |||||| 30% Hypersensitivity |||||||||||||||||||| 90% Female cliche |||| 16% Take Free Advanced Global Personality Test personality tests by similarminds.com Yay Peter Pan complexes!! I don't wanna grow up! And I, like Kristy, assert that I COULD be romantic... just never really wanted to. I think it might be slightly overrated. I chuckled at the bottom part that said I was an avoidant daydreamer... yes, that sounds about right. Why is it raining??? Damn you, Hawai'i!! I can play video games at home, you know? I don't need to go to paradise to do that!! Gawarraugh! >_ Current Mood: bored Current Music: Todd's video game (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, March 12th, 2005
7:33 pm	Lookie Ma, I'm a pagan!! ^_^ You scored as paganism. Your beliefs are most closely aligned with those of paganism, Wicca, or a similar earth-based religion. You may also follow a Native American religion. </td> paganism 79% agnosticism 79% Buddhism 71% Satanism 67% Hinduism 63% Christianity 54% Islam 50% Judaism 25% atheism 0% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com Satanism was also frighteningly high. That can't be right. But yeah, Paganism, Buddhism, Christainity, and agnosticism. Mix together, shake well, and there's Cathe's conception of god and morality ^_^ Current Mood: dorky Current Music: anything on 106.1 ^_^ (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 1st, 2005
4:42 pm	Music again! I've noticed in all of my entries I'm listening to Within Temptation or Nightwish! Honestly, I listen to other stuff too!! Right now Kristy's playing the Katamari Damacy OST... hell if I know what that is, but the music's cool... and since Makoto (my computer) lives in the room of happy between Zebulon (K's puter) and Fred's unnamed computer, I kinda have to listen. And we were listening to the FFX soundtrack earlier (mostly because they were trying to entice me to play it >_< I don't know why. I love cutscenes and stuff, but I don't really want to play X... I just want to watch someone else play it!) Oh, and then there was the Gitaroo Man soundtrack... I dearly love and hate that game! So there! I listen to lots of stuff! And now I get ready for work. Current Mood: cheerful Current Music: Katamari Damacy OST (2 Comments |Comment on this)
4:18 pm	So, I got yelled at by a certain someone because I never update my live journal. I think she's the only one who reads it, and I do live with her so it seems silly but... yeah okay. Happy? ^_^ I've been in a drawing mood lately. Weird actually, because I really can't draw. And the fact that I live with 4 artsy people makes my drawing look even worse. But having free lessons on drawing stuff isn't so bad if I can get over the giggles I get for the more horrible things I've done (Peekaboo Q, anyone? ^_^ ) But anywho, I like being able to actually see what my characters look like and I really like the idea of having pictures to all my stories (yay for illustrated novels! Pictures are Pree-tah!) I don't know why more people don't do that. I guess 'cuz somewhere along the line people got the idea that adults should only enjoy words and illustrations were for kids. That's just poopy, I tell you. Because manga is one of the greatest things evar! (hugs the 2 new loves, Saiyuki and Legal Drug... along with Yami and Tokyo Babylon ^_^ ) I love pictures! And one day, in the far far future, I will be able to draw! So now I shall entertain myself with pictures until I have to go make candles at 6. Yup. Making candles. That's my job. What kinda job is actually fun like that??? If I didn't have to deal with people, and my bosses weren't so dumb, I may even call it the best job ever. You take a hunk of wax, dip it in pretty colors many, many times and then take a knife to it! Whee! Current Mood: creative Current Music: Stand My Ground - Within Temptation (Comment on this)
Sunday, November 28th, 2004
1:12 am	The year of happy music! Actually, the past couple years have been the years of happy music, so I rejoice. ^_^ Been on this random European gothy metal kick for about 2 years now. And it's treated me very very well. Just when I'd had Once in my CD player constantly for one month and was starting to look for something else to listen to (although I love my Nightwish dearly), I find out today that Within Temptation has a new CD!!! And at first I was sad because they don't (aren't popular enough?) to release outside of Europe, but someone went and put the whole blessed thing on Kazaa. And this is why we should have music sharing - to get the albums we can't buy and totally screw over the American groups that only put one good fucking song on their CDs and yet still charge $17 for it! (Cathe is still a bit bitter about a certain Jewel CD she bought in 8th/9th grade. /fume) But anyhoo - The Silent Force is the new CD of happiness! And it may be tied with Fallen by Evanescence for the ultimate character song CD (sadly, only special K really understands my obsession with character songs ;_; ) It has 2 songs that fit my Gemini story!! 2!!! And I freak out!! ^_^ So so happy. Thank you, Within Temptation for releasing more music greatness. (And I'll try to forget about the freakishly weird and annoying way your lead vocalist swings her arms while singing.) Current Mood: I love music! Current Music: Forsaken - Within Temptation (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 27th, 2004
9:27 pm	Nightwish WHEE!! Yeah. I bought the Nightwish _Once_ CD last Tuesday, uncertain about whether or not I would really like it. I'd only heard one of the songs before (Nemo), and even though I absofreakin'lutely love this particular Finnish metal band, I wasn't sure. And there's nothing worse than buying a $15 CD and finding out that one song you heard is the only one that's decent. So with understandable anxiety, I put the CD in my player. All I can say is WOW...! This is a really really really good CD. I listened to it all last week. I listened to it in the car, at home, around campus, and on my 1 1/2 hour commute (each way) to school. I listened to it today... all the way to Savannah (4 hours!). In fact, a full day was devoted to "Ghost Love Score," the most awesome track on the CD and Caila and Nahvi's new theme ^_^ Seriously though, what other group can you get metal, operatic female sopranos, screaming male vocals, Indian chanting and movie score instrumentals? And oddly enough, for all this variety, everything fits! Wow. Dude, why haven't we heard more about this group in America? Why aren't they playing at major venues??? This CD has something for everyone, no matter your taste in music. Why are European metal bands so awesome? First, Lacuna Coil, now Nightwish... c'mon Within Temptation... you can make it into American music too! Much love! Current Mood: teeheeheeheee! WHeee!! Current Music: Ghost Love Score - Nightwish (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 6th, 2004
10:03 pm	The Good Stuff? This is basically a giant ramble to myself. But we're leaving politics alone this time ^_^ Today, in my Romantic Lit class we read two works by Wordsworth and Coleridge, respectively, in which they voice anxiety about their role as poets. Wordsworth basically said, Do I suck? But no, I can't, I'm supposed to be the Poet... but maybe I do suck. Coleridge was so plagued by his own doubts and Wordsworth's constant criticism that he dried up creatively in the middle of his career, before continuing with renewed confidence. If two important members of the Big 6 (Col, Words, Keats, Shelley, Byron, Blake) had doubts, yet were obviously good writers, then how appropriate are our own fears? How do you know when you are any good? Do you listen to your friends? How do they know, and will they tell you the truth? After all, Wordsworth sucked up to Coleridge, they became pals, then Wordsworth decided that Coleridge's work wasn't good enough, cutting most of it from their joint project (Lyrical Ballads) to be replaced with Wordsworth's own stuff. Yet Coleridge WAS a tremendous writer... Wordsworth didn't fully appreciate its value. Do you listen to your professors, or professionals that should know better? The advice I got from a published poet was that my voice wouldn't sell. It just wasn't the style. Although I altered my form a bit, I know I can't conform to the current favored style. If I change, my writing will go from being (and this always sounds weird) part of my being, as essential as breathing, my therapy and comfort; into a cash commodity. All I've ever wanted to do is write. Do you sell out so you can sell? Can you listen to yourself? Think of all the people you see on American Idol that think they can sing but sound like a pack of poisoned wolves screaming. You don't want to make a fool of yourself, but you don't want to carry around so much doubt that you give up either. Can you ever adequately judge yourself? You know what you want to say, everything has meaning to you, even the most cheeseball lines still touch you because they ARE you. But how can you, locked inside your own head, tell if you are reaching anyone? How much do you think of your intended audience? Do you even have an intended audience? Or do you write for your own pleasure/comfort/sanity and then hope for the best? When do you know if you're ready to publish, submit your poor defenseless infant-works to the world? And how do you regroup when they are rejected? How do writers appeal to people? Luck of the draw or careful manipulation of an audience? Is there a point you stop and give up - or should you push on despite what everything tells you? Should you even put out works written solely for you? But what if someone else understands and needs to hear it? Where is the point of too much vulnerability? Weakness that these saavy, sarcastic, joke-cracking new poets don't understand or accept. Do you still write your thoughts even though that's not the way now? Is your voice important even though it's small and no one cares for it? How do you know if you're good enough? Current Mood: contemplative Current Music: Within Temptation - Pearls of Light (1 Comment |Comment on this)
12:09 am	I'm not political... Okay, I'd just like to say, I'm not political, despite having it ingrained into my head that all good Americans vote. I could not care less who becomes president this year, because honestly, I believe that checks and balances work, and no elected official can screw up the US unreasonably. That being said, the thing that will send me straight to the voting booth is the proposed Amendment One (Georgia constitution). Voters will be asked if they would like to define marriage as being only between a man and a woman and will be given a yes/no choice. HOWEVER, the amendment also affects hospital visitation, wills, medical decisions, tax deductions, adoptions, and child custody for homosexuals. Funny how those things aren't mentioned in the ballot. They've made it into an ideological issue, completely forgetting that they are denying an entire section of people their basic right to the "pursuit of happiness"! Nice. I'll admit, even I didn't pay much attention to the bill until I learned what all it covered. I mean, it's never been legal for homosexuals to marry, so it's not really taking away anything, is it? ... but then again it is. It will take away any protective legal measure that homosexuals could ever hope for. And it will be put in a constitution, which will require so much more to be overturned, even if people wise up and decide they were wrong later. And you know what? It's already passed in several states. And that truly frightens me. I'd like to be able to say that I'm just an impartial observer, and I wish they wouldn't legalize discrimination, even though it doesn't really affect me. But it does. I don't want any possible future jeopardized by the narrowmindness of today. Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Long Lost Love by Nightwish (1 Comment |Comment on this)